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Sunday, April 17, 2011

a culmination of sorts.

dunno why i'm posting this here. i guess its only people i like who read this and only them who probably care at all about whats going on with me. this post doesn't have so much to do with food as it does my shortcomings as an adult. it indirectly involves food i guess, since my financial state dictates my food choices. and here it is: i'm broke. like, really broke. i think i can look back over the last couple of years and see the downward spiral to the place i am now. i guess i kept thinking i could stave off financial responsibility until i got my degree. nope. doesn't happen that way. i've fucked myself financially and i have only myself to blame. i haven't finished college and i don't know if i ever will. i want to, but i don't know if i'll be able to afford it any time soon. i party waaay too much. my friends have all kinda slowed down, but for some reason i felt like it was a great idea to keep pushing myself. dumb. i think i knew this was coming for a while but was too scared to try to deal with it. i've kinda destroyed my body with partying and eating tons of bad food. don't know how to quite recover from it, because lets be honest, i'm good at making bad decisions. also, i'm the master of procrastinating important things that come back to haunt me. and haunt me they do. relentlessly. i ate too much shitty pizza today and i still feel sick. instead of dealing with my problems, my problems have dealt with me. now i have to abandon or sell things that are very important to me and i don't want to. thanks for reading. thanks for being my friend. thanks for the recommendations and taking recommendations. wish me luck


errin julkunen-pedersen said...

pull your head out. eat some veggies. i can help you cook delicious healthy food (so can cassie). i can help you stop partying. i can't do much about the money thing, because i come from a long line of financial fuckups and am still trying to navigate that place myself. i can help you exercise. i can help you get healthy, because i need help getting heatlhy, too. we will help each other.

i love you.

Rob said...

well, good luck, first of all.

i dunno, just sorry to hear that that's how things are for you right now. the only thing i'd say is, now isn't forever. its hard to remember that sometimes, but that's always, always true.

things change, and so will this. and you're pretty well equipped to pull through, i think. rooting for you.

cassie said...

Igosh, i love you. you're one of my best pals and i want you around forever. let's make some damn food.

deadcityrebel said...

ah shit, thanks dudes. i'm a slow learner of the lessons of life. i need to realize i can't do everything myself, even though i like trying.

Ronda said...

Call me, Joey - Love you - Ronda/Ma