updating things

i need to update my photo for this blog. any suggestions? i can't make decisions on my own anymore.

taking a big slump.

geez, what a drama queen i turned out to be. reminder: this is not a forum for whining. sorry for the whining. things are working themselves out. hope i didn't scare anyone too much. went to pete's this morning with cassie and newlin. got my old standby. it was super busy today and pete was lookin sharp. saw some familiar faces and got full. super excited for the toga party tonight, it's been a while. i think i'm coming out of a big slump. good for me. good for you. party time.

a culmination of sorts.

dunno why i'm posting this here. i guess its only people i like who read this and only them who probably care at all about whats going on with me. this post doesn't have so much to do with food as it does my shortcomings as an adult. it indirectly involves food i guess, since my financial state dictates my food choices. and here it is: i'm broke. like, really broke. i think i can look back over the last couple of years and see the downward spiral to the place i am now. i guess i kept thinking i could stave off financial responsibility until i got my degree. nope. doesn't happen that way. i've fucked myself financially and i have only myself to blame. i haven't finished college and i don't know if i ever will. i want to, but i don't know if i'll be able to afford it any time soon. i party waaay too much. my friends have all kinda slowed down, but for some reason i felt like it was a great idea to keep pushing myself. dumb. i think i knew this was coming for a while but was too scared to try to deal with it. i've kinda destroyed my body with partying and eating tons of bad food. don't know how to quite recover from it, because lets be honest, i'm good at making bad decisions. also, i'm the master of procrastinating important things that come back to haunt me. and haunt me they do. relentlessly. i ate too much shitty pizza today and i still feel sick. instead of dealing with my problems, my problems have dealt with me. now i have to abandon or sell things that are very important to me and i don't want to. thanks for reading. thanks for being my friend. thanks for the recommendations and taking recommendations. wish me luck

dear fried egg sandwich

you are simple and pure. and digesting.

jambalaya etc

made jambalaya for the first time in a while last night. most of you know about this from tweets and FB and whatnot. what you don't know is that i set the stove on fire during this undertaking. i spilled a little pat of butter on a red-hot element and realized as soon as it happened i realized it was futile to try to save the butter. nothing happened immediately. but a minute or two later i saw flames coming up from underneath the element. in this situation i could have:

1. freaked out

2. looked for a fire extinguisher i know doesn't exist.

3. tossed a towel over the flames

i did none of these. instead, i took a photo with my phone, sent it to a couple of people and then blew the flame out.

i did a few things differently (not completely on purpose) for this batch of jambalaya; mainly i used some rip-off andouille sausage that is supposed to be gourmet and shit. do not buy aidell's andouille if you want andouille. you're better off using polish sausage instead. (sautee the sausage in butter and cayenne. still isn't real andouille, but is better than the crap i bought.) i didn't have rosemary in this batch either. i forgot to look in my spice cab before i went to the store. i can tell the difference, but i don't think anyone else can. all in all this jambalaya turned out pretty good. cassie liked it and she's my benchmark. it was a happy evening at the compound.

i don't think cassie is going to let me be lazy about cooking much longer.

HEALTH

i've been trying to eat healthier the last week or so, and i'm failing at it. i feel like shit all the time and i know i know i know it's because i don't eat well or exercise or do anything right. this isn't a post where i proclaim to the world how dedicated i am to eating healthier and making better food and lifestyle decisions. being healthy requires a lot of work. i hate work. at the current rate i'll probably be eating healthier by 2016. and it would help if my friends wouldn't bring over cheddar jalepeno cheetos. wtf! have you had those? so good. i should probably buy a bag of apples next time i go to the store, but i will probably instead buy chips and salsa. or a frozed pizza. oh what to do.

if you wear fancy pants

you should totally try out nordstroms sandwiches and shit. their coffee is very mediocre, but them sandwiches more than make up for it.